Are these not the most handsome men you have ever seen?
"He has made everything appropriate in its time. He has also put eternity in their hearts, but man cannot discover the work God has done from beginning to end." Ecclesiastes 3:11




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So, don't really know why, but Jermile and I decided to take some maternity pictures for the sake of having some, and since there is not much we can do with them, here you go! I just so felt the need to sit down and blog, even though I really should be writing a paper! This is more fun. I have been doing the Beth Moore study of Esther and man, is it kicking my butt. I am just so drawn to share everything the Lord has been teaching me through it and it is coming at the perfect time. Of course, if you are familiar with the book at all, you know Mordecai's famous words in 4:14, "What's more, who can say but that you have been elevated to the palace FOR JUST SUCH A TIME AS THIS?" Can I admit how absolutely terrified I am to begin my journey as a mom? I have so much to learn myself and have so much about myself that I truly detest and here I am about to try my best at training a child in the Lord. But, with that said, God has truly engulfed me in this study "for such a time as this." What I have been learning: Our only steadfast defenses against life's certain uncertainty is unconditional trust in a Savior who loves us more than His own life, living with constant fear is harder than trusting, God is more aware than we are of just how much He requires of us, He knows how hard it is going to be for us, what would have happened if Esther had waited to go to the king until her hands stopped shaking and her heart stopped pounding?, God is proud of us for fighting overwhelming human emotions to do His will, He is not interested in stellar performance, but in our hearts, He loves our willingness and obedience despite our insecurities, Christ's purpose is calling us to deny ourselves is that we'd deny our selfishness, ambition, pasts or damaged emotions that cheat us of His far higher plans for us (huge for me).

